That's where I am at.
I know it's not healthy.
I know it's not wise.
I just have no idea what to do about it.
I am sick and tired and keep getting sicker. Life is crazy and busy and never, ever ends. I am parenting 24 hours a day seven days a week. If it's not teenage angst at midnight, it's a toddler who doesn't yet know how to sleep through the night and starts her day at 2:00 am.
I have kids at the most selfish extremes of their lives. Teenagers and Toddlers. They suck every scrap of self out of me, and give very little back.
We have had 5 birthdays in 3 months. I am homeschooling two now. I am dealing with therapists and evaluations and hormones and parent contact and regression and just general busy insanity that is life with 6 kids.
And I am tired. But there is no time to be tired because I have to host a birthday party for a bunch of teenagers today, and drive another teenager to another city so he can play hockey, while juggling 2 toddlers to do it. Tomorrow is the same. And then the day after that, MORE of the same.
Monday the cycle starts all over again.