You ever have one of those days where it feels like the world should really slow down because you cannot process all that is happening all at once? Today was such a day.
First off, we now know that the end date of "foster parenting" the girls will be August, 2010 and most certainly we have them until that point. It is not necessarily the end date of parenting them though. That's about as much as I can say about THAT right now, but needless to say it's been an interesting day. What we do know clearly after today is how much their mother trusts and respects us. We are honored.
And then I got my CT Scan results. Yes THOSE results. And it wasn't all good news. My kidney's are clear. That IS good. What isn't clear is my liver. No results, just concerns, a "something" and more tests to come. I will know more in about two weeks. To say this came as a shock would be a rather enormous understatement.
And sadly I know too much about liver cancer right now to be calm about this. Of course, probably, most likely and it is a benign something on my liver. But then again, probably and most likely that kidney tumor was supposed to be benign too. And it wasn't. I don't want to hear about "most likelys" and "probablys". I just want to be fine and I want to be done with cancer.