Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Ever have one of those weeks?

You ever have one of those days where it feels like the world should really slow down because you cannot process all that is happening all at once? Today was such a day.

First off, we now know that the end date of "foster parenting" the girls will be August, 2010 and most certainly we have them until that point. It is not necessarily the end date of parenting them though. That's about as much as I can say about THAT right now, but needless to say it's been an interesting day. What we do know clearly after today is how much their mother trusts and respects us. We are honored.

And then I got my CT Scan results. Yes THOSE results. And it wasn't all good news. My kidney's are clear. That IS good. What isn't clear is my liver. No results, just concerns, a "something" and more tests to come. I will know more in about two weeks. To say this came as a shock would be a rather enormous understatement.

And sadly I know too much about liver cancer right now to be calm about this. Of course, probably, most likely and it is a benign something on my liver. But then again, probably and most likely that kidney tumor was supposed to be benign too. And it wasn't. I don't want to hear about "most likelys" and "probablys". I just want to be fine and I want to be done with cancer.


Brandy said...

I hate livers.

Hate them.

Why can't we have livers that are like appendixes? You know, something you can live with or without.

Listen, I've got a deal for you - hear me out - I'll trade you. It's a fair trade I think. Mine doesn't have any funky unknown growths or anything - you'd surely be free of anything that could be mistaken as cancer.

Of course - it's yours, I insist! What are friends for?! :)

Chin up - I'm here if you want to complain...about stupid, stupid livers.

Heidi said...

Shiver me livers, Jen, Jen you have more going on than you get in a prime time movie... Well don't be diggin up the yard for your pooch's buried valium, things can't possibly get any more crazy in your life. I think you are amazing and I'm praying you get good news fast

Jenny said...

Yep, I know the feeling. That overwhelmed, what the heck is coming next feeling and why do you think I can handle it. Hang in there. When I pray my my strength today, I'll pray for yours as well. God bless.

Tudu said...

Neither of us have time for your liver to screw things up now so I'm sure it will work out. Your babies though, it sounds like good news for all of you! I'm thinking of you. I'm here.

Unknown said...

thinking of you....and every post I read, being a fairly new reader, makes me more in awe of you. I so admire all that you are doing.

Anonymous said...

So sorry Jen that you have one more thing to worry about. Hope you don't have to wait too long to find out ... and of course praying the news is good. (((hugs)))
Maira (TDKOL)

Di said...

UGH! Cancer sucks... not knowing sucks. So sorry to hear this... Will be praying, trusting and waiting for the"ALL CLEAR" when you go for futher tests. Hang on to the rope and swing!

One Busy Momma said...

I hope you hear great news on your liver!
You have so much going on... I'm so sorry you have to deal with the additional stress of this....