Living life on the edge. I can't write about all that consumes my every thought and so I am silent.
We wait. Wait for life changing, life freeing, life altering news. A decision that changes everything that counts.
I can't even breathe the possibilities and my heart breaks in 10000 pieces even thinking of the various possible outcomes.
I was not built for this. I am not strong enough. I love too hard. Feel too deeply.
I have done everything "right". Kept every action pure. Ever action right.
But my thoughts run rampant. My hopes. I would dream but cannot sleep.
And my heart breaks for another who fails. I do not wish their greatest loss being my greatest gain.
And yet I do. Because I love and ache at the possibility of my pain.
I know that pain. I cannot live that pain again.
And yet I know of their loss. No matter what I face their loss.
I am loved. I love. And I fear.
Tomorrow comes with a finality I cannot avoid.
Tomorrow I would covet your prayers.